I want to have my ducks in a row. I’m working on a proposal document outlining our efforts to begin a church in Worcester and I want to get it “just right.” The color scheme will flow through the document, the graphics dazzle and the language eloquently convey the need and opportunities connected with planting in Worcester. A clear plan, compelling vision, demonstrable goals, and thoughtful strategies for ministry in Worcester all vie for my attention as I think about the next thing to write. Why?
Underneath my desire for excellence, enjoyment of the creative process and excitement about the work ahead of us I think there is a misplaced trust. While in theory I know that only God can build a church. In our own efforts and strength we can’t accomplish anything, yet this freaks me out. I don’t want to live in the reality of my own powerlessness and by necessity entrust myself to God. So, I try so hard to have all my ducks in a row. While excellence, creativity and excitement are laudable virtues I can’t be driven by confidence in my own efforts, as this is actually a fundamental distrust of God. So as I work today and going forward, I still do my best to have the ducks in a row but do not put my hope there. Instead, there is a God who “can do immeasurably more than we can ask or imagine.” “He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?